Thank you for being such a blessing in my life <3 p="">I can write paragraphs and paragraphs of words, but today, I'm tired, and I've a paper due thurday.
Laters

" And of all these things I've done
I think I love you better now. "

Tuesday:
Thankful for the quick meetup to watch Jaychou's movie.With the clock ticking, every extra bit of time that I get with you become that much more precious, and I'm glad we finally went to watch my favorite after bugging you for a long time.

Wednesday:
Thankful for spending almost the entire day with you. Thank you for planning the date at ecp, it was fun. My favorite part was lazing around on the hammock with you. You feel safe, and I want you to be my safe haven so badly at this point of time. I love our inside joke, Leonie the explorer and your glistening back. Steamboat after that was really yumz and spending even more time with you at my place after was the cherry on top.

What if one day you don't love me any more?
I hope that day never comes.

Monday:
Thankful for the good time we had in jb, getting to eat good food and having the chance to tell you I love you. I know how rough the past weeks were,and how during those times it was difficult to find joy in being with each other sometimes. It just meant so much to me that we got to spend that half a day together, enjoying each other's company. It was very reassuring, and I'm thankful for that.

We're awkward at times, we haven't got all the things figured out and we're imperfect in so many ways.
Things are messy, circumstances are tough, and the road ahead will still continue to be an uphill battle.
But I like us this way, together, trying to work things out.
Me telling you I really need you now.
And you replying you're not letting me face all these alone.


The past two/three weeks have been a nightmare. The demons of my past that I have to fight are really messing me up. Almost every single time I see you this week ended with me in tears. Sometimes it seems like you're getting the shorter end of the bargain because you need to fix me. But it'll get better, it can only get better.

Happy eight months love.
I love you

Wish you're here so badly.

“Tell him yes. Even if you are dying of fear, even if you are sorry later, because whatever you do, you will be sorry all the rest of your life if you say no.”
Gabriel Garcí­a Márquez, Love in the time of cholera

One of the bravest thing I've done for myself is to say yes to you.
And when I said yes, I agreed to not just fall in love with you, but to also grow in love with you.

i need you more than you think.

B, if you're reading, can we talk? I miss talking and hanging out with my best friend, and right now I could really use a friend.
虫

Had the most brutal and painfully honest htht last night. Talked alot, cried alot, and the future is still as scary as ever. I know what I signed myself for when I said 'yes', and sure it is nowhere near rational or sane in a cost-benefit-analysis, but I really like you. And I'm not ready to give this up.

I'm gonna be kinda upset and it will def take me some time to be more confident about the nature of our relationship. Love me anyway, will you?

It hasn't been easy. In all honestly, there has been so much doubt and insecurity recently, and it've been really rough for me.
The next couple years ain't gonna be a walk in the park, but still.. I want to do this relationship-commitment thing with you. For a long time.

I want to kiss you
(Even when you annoy me,)
all day endlessly.

I wrote a haiku to declare my love for you, how romantic!
While your pseudo-poem for me only has one line: I love you L.
Silly boy, how do you make me smile so easily?


I know you told me that you'll draw the lines more clearly, but I still can't help but panic a little inside. Please tell me I can trust you. Don't let me down G. Other than that, the past few days was a dream. I love spending time with you, with lots of cuddling in my room cos the haze is stopping us from going out to pah tuo. Reminds me of the good old days in Rice. Why can't you just stay here forever? :(

Meeting you after work later yay! Can't wait!

"And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies, the beautiful kindMaking up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel right"
That's how I feel when I see you (again). And really, this feeling never gets old.

I fell in love not with the grand gestures, but with the little things you do. 

Sorry if I made you worried. We'll go to the doctor's tgt next week and everything will be fine, I promise.

• Walking towards each other like those couple reunion in the movies.
• You standing right in front of me.
• A long hug, followed by you planting a kiss on my forehead and me kissing you for a fraction of a second on your lips. Words failed us both.
• Smiling like crazy because the boy I see so often on my computer screen is finally back.
• Holding hands and coming up to my place.
• Meeting my parents for the first time.
• Finally some alone time, where the world and its various problems cease to matter for a while.
• Walked to compass point to get you some real boba. While lining for it, Train's drive by was playing on the background. That's the song that was playing when we were lining for Denny's to have my last real meal in US before flying back home. The insignificant little things I remember.
• Koala everywhere. You said people would think we are a very PDA couple. I said that's only because people wouldn't know that I haven't seen you in 4.5 months.
• Perks of staying on the 16th storey: long enough lift ride for a proper kiss. I've waited for that for way too long.
• Talked more, took a picture to snapchat my roommates, we have too much to catch up and we helped ourselves to a second round.
• Wished time passed slower so that I can have you for a little longer.
• Saying g'bye. And knowing that I will see you again tomorrow.

Happy 6th months love. I love you so much.
I haven't have enough of you, and you're leaving for 16 days.
I miss you already, come back soon.

Right now, I really am happy and contented to have you back home again. You asked if the wait was worth it. Yes it was. 

別再擔心我什麼了 別把我寵壞 
只要你平安回來 就夠浪漫

Tomorrow, I will kiss you like there is no tomorrow, tomorrow.

It feels so surreal and there really isn't any words I can think of that can adequately describe how I'm feeling right now. I'm elated that you'll be back home in less than 48 hours, beyond elated actually. It's like that few seconds before you unwrap the nicest present you've gotten, when its in your hands and you're so so excited to open it. Its knowing that having that present in your hand is nice, but opening it will multiply that happiness a hundred times. And you are that present. Having you in my life is pretty sweet, but having you back home, I'm gonna be so happy. This is a failed attempt at describing my feeling

“Choices are made in brief seconds and paid for in the time that remains” 

― Paolo Giordano, The Solitude of Prime Numbers

Reading through some of our past whatsapp conversations and feeling extremely nostalgic about it. I'm still glad for all that happened, for the confusion and hesitation and reservations that I had about you. I guess in a way those made me even more sure about the choice of getting together with you. And for once when I think about the distant and unknown future, I really hope with all my heart that you will be part of it. For a long time.
Please come back safely from your camping trip. I'll try not to worry too much and get some sleep in the meantime. And in 6 days time, I'll be back in your arms again!